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Fighting the Self-Hatred Epidemic

***After I pulsed out the original version of this post, I got feedback. Thank you for the questions. It is important to get this right – I learn from you every day.***

There is an epidemic spreading and taking root in the West. It is subtle and nearly invisible in some cases, and more blatant in others. Most importantly, there is a cure, but this cure requires us to recognize the epidemic in the first place. If we are not afflicted, then we can try to help others as best we can.

When the New Age movement started, many fine authors talked about the importance of self-love. There was a stir in the Western world to become more gentle with oneself, to heal the inner child, and to learn to set boundaries with inappropriate behaviors and people. This was good. What is so important about self-love anyway, besides a better quality of life?

It turns out that self-love is not just an emotion or a feeling. Instead, it is an actual configuration of the physical and more subtle nervous systems to receive and be able to hold Spirit in form. Without self-love we literally reject uniting with Spirit and we block Its connection to, through, and as Us. Alternatively, even if we achieve Union, our nervous system can literally fry from this energy if it is unprepared to hold It. There are many pathways to Union with Spirit – there have to be – but the milestones of levels of freedom or degrees of Union appear to be similar. I am not just talking about Kundalini energy here – raising Kundalini energy is no guarantee of enlightenment.

Now the self-hatred epidemic is running rampant again. We had received doses of an antiobiotic, but then built immunity. There are forces at work in this world that have an interest in devolving the majority of the human race, and these forces have been working in new, different, and more conniving ways to manipulate people to accept self-hatred as the norm – and even believe that they feel self-love while engaging in self-loathing. This may not apply to you because you see through it, I understand, and yet there are many caught in this net at this time.

Who or what would wish to sabotage the human race in this way? Think about it…. An enlightened global community is very dangerous to those who believe the world population must be controlled – and enlightened beings are fundamentally free and happy (i.e., not controllable). The easiest way to keep developed populations down is by instilling hidden belief systems that one is fundamentally flawed and screwed up the core, unworthy, guilty, crazy, and just generally meaningless. There are entire theses in think tanks about how to manage world dynamics! Of course there are…. While people go about their daily lives, there are those who carefully deliberate how to generate stability and instability in various communities at various times to achieve control.

One would think that such a negative framework pervading social structures would drive mass majority to suicide, but that is not the case. Instead, it lulls the population into a kind of low- or mid-grade depression, inertia, and various autoimmune responses, OR the perversion of self-love as narcissism, racism, and other forms of “better-than-you”-isms. Both ends of the spectrum are breeding-grounds for separation at the Soul level, fueled by increased distractions that take one away from the simple core idea that one can achieve Union with Spirit and embody It uniquely with full consciousness of the Whole.

Thousands of years ago, yogis attained enlightenment in caves and on river edges, under trees and while sitting on wild grass. They discovered that the human nervous system was capable of a transformation that would ignite all form with Spirit to manifest a new kind of life that would emphasize our creative potential, making fear and the fight for survival obsolete. However, there are those who want to make enlightenment impossible for the human race by destabilizing the psyche, overwhelming people with work or the lack of work, monopolizing people’s attention with distractions, and ultimately damaging our nervous systems to make us permanently unable to feel the flow of Life. Yes, imagine that our nervous systems become so rigid to change and numbed by fear that we become trapped as fragmented consciousness in matter until the world simply winds down – which it will, some day. In other words, we will begin to forget more and more that we are fragments of One Spirit AND be completely convinced that we have achieved full potential at the same time! That is the worse case scenario – not knowing that we don’t know.

We must fight for our lives and sanity from a place of peace to be truly available to pure intention and attention, and resist the urge to fight from a place of anger and sadness. We must, once again, build reminders into our day to choose self-kindness and use these moments to invite Spirit in and embrace It. Once again, we must find good counselors to heal various traumas and let these go. When we are bombarded with messages to fear for our lives, we must flick a switch to choose relationship to every aspect of our lives, to forgive ourselves, and to let go into simple being. This is a moment-by-moment practice, relentless and filled with heart-felt yearning.

Another result of the lack of self-love is the desire to escape. The opiode epidemic is only one example. Besides drugs and alcohol, there are also emerging belief systems that we are shifting into a new Earth (and leaving the “unready” behind). But there is just this Earth – this one right now, and with this you and everything else on it. And if you think about it, is escaping and leaving others behind spiritual, even if it were possible?

The desire to escape suffering and pain is built into the manipulation and prepares masses to become lost in video games and, ultimately, “virtual fiction” reality – possibly removed many levels from this reality. We already see this behavior taking over many people because “it feels better than reality.” Sadly, this trend takes us deeper into the dark well of devolution. We must fight to feel the Sun on our faces, the grass and sand between our toes, and the touch of another’s hand in our hand to remain connected.

True freedom does not require any specific material or life conditions to be happy and awake. Life does not have to work out for you to become free and feel happy. How can it be freedom otherwise? It’s nice when things go well. But things don’t always go well. When stuff happens, does the enlightened state disappear or go on hold? No.

The yearning for enlightenment can die for us if we buy into unconscious self-rejection and escape. This would be tragic when we have the key to a revolution and an unhinged marriage of Spirit and Matter as individual expression. Enlightenment does not require props – only a consistent leap of faith that it is very possible for you, and the intense yearning to break through.

The great news is that the Light is always there and ready for you. It waits, poised for that instant when you accept yourself just long enough for It to get in and stay. You will literally feel a physical sensation of It pouring into the crown of your head and taking hold of the brain stem – and that is only the beginning. It has to stabilize.

There are endless opportunities all day long to yearn, release, and surrender to what lives you. Self-hatred and the Light are like oil and water, and the meditation must become a fight with the total fire of your will to burn through the thicket that falsely guards and separates you from the truth.

The new mantra is that “all the truth is within.” Sure, but we may not be able to understand it or even misinterpret it. Some say “we don’t need teachers – we can do it ourselves.” If it were that easy, we would have all done it by now and be living as a world community of free beings. But this is not the case, is it?

We have to be practical and streetsmart about spirituality for it to continue to be a force for good. For many, this means seeing through self-hatred, the desire to control and dominate, the need to be right, be powerful, be knowledgeable, be smarter, be “good-er.”

We are at a tipping point of falling into deeper illusion or waking up. There are enlightened beings. They just live – mostly incognito. Why are they still here, working hard amidst the dark tragedies, human hardships, and atrocities still going on? Why haven’t they just vanished into the rainbow of the “next level”? After they die, there will be others. But, at some point, the world may reject such beings altogether – it is not easy to be on the Earth plane in a free state, but this does not equate to suffering in human terms.

We can keep the candle of human potential burning by being practical and real with ourselves, questioning everything about our influences and our state, testing ourselves, and rejecting messages that we are flawed or better than others. This will be a fight that can only end in total transformation.

The test for enlightenment is simple – if you do not spend all of your time and during any activity feeling Life, being meditated by Life, and yearning for all to be free, then you are not yet enlightened. If you feel the need to defend or attack anything about yourself, you are not yet awake. If you take pride in what you are, you are not yet happy – because the little you is still there, needing a bigger I. If you need to escape – even as most cry out for help, you are not yet free – free beings tend Unity like a sacred garden. You can have “heaven” in any situation. If you are not living This, you are not yet free.

I often hear the question “Is enlightenment bullshit?” If the torch of true freedom is put out then yes, yes it is….

What Is History, Really?

Is history just a snapshot of our past? Is it story-telling and meaning-making based on the interpretations at the time by evolving hearts and minds? 

There are facts – told or written. And behind the facts are the endless questions about intentions, lessons, and conclusions. We have the five senses, with light and sound – and we participate in it all. We take pictures and see a patchwork of Life unfolding. We create word constructs to wrap our heads around the meaning of our lives. This kind of history is important, but incomplete….

The current practice of writing down, photographing, and “printing” sequences of events and their interpretations from various perspectives are only shadows of the more vast and pervasive process of true History that is continually taking place. This process is nothing short of our Being a part of a dynamic and reconfiguring Cosmos – complete and untouched by the analytical mind. Analysis without intuition reduces insight, just like making a picture thumbnail reduces its resolution.

The holographic-universe analogy, which suggests that every part contains the whole, is useful. In case of holograms, when you take the picture – it doesn’t look like the object at all. 


You need to shine a laser at the film to see the object’s hologram! This is a great article on how holograms are made and includes the above image – a hologram looks like a bunch of overlapping rings until you shine a laser through it to see the 3D object. Also, here is a cool WikiHow article on how to make your own hologram and see it.

If you were to cut a hologram and project laser light through each piece, you still see the whole object – just dimmer….


But this analogy for modeling our Universe eventually fails because physical holograms cannot be broken down indefinitely into smaller pieces and keep the whole picture intact – what is the smallest physical piece of the film that still captures the whole? Physical reality sets definite limits. 

The real Universe as Consciousness is not limited by space and time. Our very Being is that complete record of Life flow, from unity to differentiation, and back to unity. This is true History that can be “read” when illuminated by the Light of Consciousness. We are Living Libraries with full access to the Whole. How can anyone know this? Only through direct experience. 

Simply put, the Life process is a living record – an arrangement that constantly moves and evolves. Life does not come with a “book” because it is a book being written by All. 

My question is – so what? Is it even useful to consider the Living Stream as a record when its very nature is never static? Is it valuable to feel reality unfolding as if spontaneously reading the entire Universe like a book? The answer is a resounding “Yes” because then you realize History is just fully conscious Living that cannot be reduced to words on pages. And the meaning of it All is natural.

The Akashik Records – a shadow of the Whole – do provide some Historic awareness and are claimed to be easily accessible and readable by anyone – a library of “answers.” Some say that anyone could ask any question and get an answer. This is true, but the information obtained depends on the person. Many claim to read the Universe, but if that  information is not obtained by Living as the Whole, it is colored by perception, interpretation, and imagination to varying degrees. 

Imagine if Akashik Records were fully accessible to all people – consider the impact on our world! Imagine accessing all knowing by every Soul, which would birth  profound empathy like wildfire across the human race. We would understand All and relate to All with compassion. We would stop our endless bickering and develop a shared understanding of how things really are, while celebrating uniqueness. We would stop criticizing, separating, and reinventing the wheel. This is not yet our Reality.

    Human actions are highly repetitive, and history – as we call it – repeats itself (even in the way it is constantly rewritten by people to fit specific agendas). We must recognize, on some level, that our history is not truth – it is only a bunch of strewn together points of view, made popular by the preponderant forces of a specific time. We do not agree on what constitutes “mistakes,” so how can we learn from mistakes collectively? We can strive to be true Historians by developing our awareness to the point of embodying the Life process.

    As an aside, it is not possible to build a time machine to go to the “past” because the entire universe reconfigures from one state to the next – and is just present. There is no “matter” to go back to. There are not copies of the universe made from moment to moment. Nevertheless, some people are able to follow the trails and imprints via sensitive intuition to reconstruct evolution. They may not be able to fully communicate that knowledge because much is beyond our everyday experience and words, or concepts. There are also faint trails forming of the future, much like airplane runways – possibilities – some more likely than others.

    History is Alive as us, and becoming more so as we are more conscious of being the Whole. We are a Universe of Universes within Universes, and this knowledge can be grasped in a flash of intuition from moment to moment. Instant recognition is not only possible, it is an eventuality of our potential.