Forever – is composed of Nows –
‘Tis not a different time –
Except for Infiniteness –
Emily Dickinson, 690, 1929
It took me over two years to realize that I was no longer experiencing the passage of time. Now, the idea of eternity as the moment is real. So what?
We are obsessed with time because we start out wired for the finite, the ephemeral, and the temporary, and then wind down toward the end. Most fear death, and try to buy time, borrow time, stretch out moments, or become lost in the denial of the fleeting. For many, life feels like existence between the book-ends of Birth and death. But is that how it needs to be?
At first, I noticed a continuity of consciousness through both waking and sleep hours. It felt as if I was living “OneLongDay,” as I jokingly called this state of uninterrupted awareness. I slept, but I was still conscious. The sleeping state was not the same as the waking state, and I mostly knew when I was asleep – even as I remained conscious. At times, waking up felt disorienting if I didn’t know whether I was still asleep or awake, and the two states felt nearly the same.
Gradually, the continuity of perception felt more natural. I became accustomed to flowing in and out of sleep and waking states. I learned that it was not the mind that remained awake, but the consciousness beyond the mind and other perceptual tools. By identifying with That which lives us all – Spirit, the Divine, whatever you call it – I was permanently awake, regardless of the transitions between resting the body and activity.
I went through a period of overwhelm. It is amazing how much more information was pouring through my being. Because I was accustomed to processing information with the mind, I was exhausted. Later, I learned to allow flashes of insight – a way of knowing without detailed processing. This kind of knowing resembles how we use symbols – to condense information without losing meaning. Thought seems too slow now, but I find it necessary to organize my communication with others.
When I was able to grasp that time no longer existed for me (which was not obvious), I also better understood the role of the body as a gateway between Spirit and Matter. By body, I am referring to the dense and subtle vehicles that comprise our being.
For people who identify with the body, emotions, and mind, the body is mostly closed. Such a body takes in information, relates to the stimuli as experiences, and stores these experiences. In a sense, this kind of body is like a room with a closed door, and consciousness keeps packing more experiences into the room. Such confined consciousness results in a stop-and-go perception of the finite, as well as the relative feelings of time “dragging” or “rushing by.” Some speak of being “in the zone” during creative engagement, but the zone is not a permanent state.
Upon transformation, the body process reconfigures into an open gateway – Spirit flows through and as the body into Matter, and Matter is transformed and catalyzed by Spirit. Once this flow is established, perception of open-continuity becomes permanent. With nothing to break, stop, or stock the Life energy, the idea of time dissolves.
Time only has meaning when something can start and stop – when there is a fixation on starting, stopping, restarting, and so on. However, in continuity, the flow of Life energy cannot be impeded, and the experience of time loses meaning. I am guessing that this state is what some have called the eternal moment.
As I learn more, I am amazed at how crucial is the body to bringing Life to expressed potential. Our body and its transformation is the key to the eternal moment. It is the body that makes consciousness of Spirit possible and fulfills the promise of inspiring Matter.
The moment becomes eternity, but it is a dynamic, creative, and free-flowing continuity – and never boring.
The process of enlightenment transforms the body into a wide open gateway. Many talk about this state as becoming loving-kindness and hyper-perception, but this state is nothing less than true freedom. It is no wonder that a free being ceases to be self-absorbed, to live for oneself, and to focus on what one can get from life. The mechanisms that mediate such a limited relationship to Life are simply no longer there!
With the body turned into a conduit, there are no bottlenecks of unprocessed feelings or thoughts. Instead, there is dynamic flow of feeling and even healing. Any sense of being incomplete or empty is no longer possible, and the full and continuous free-flow of energy puts all neediness to rest. Only the basic needs to sustain the body remain, but these are no longer the focus.
So what? I have no idea. As I live and go through these changes, I can only share what is possible for a human being….